death is .....

I've started a couple of blogs in the past couple of years, and then come back here and posted too which is very confusing!  

As I have prayed about if I should blog and where I should blog, it has come to me that though I started this blog as a memorial to Rickey and a place to journal my thoughts regarding losing him and seeking God's "new plan" for my life, it is still a blog title that is applicable to each day of my life as each step I take is on the journey that God has pre-planned for me. God has a plan for each day of my life, a "new chapter" in the book of my life, so why a whole new book {blog}, it's still all a part of the same story! Getting re-married and moving forward did not change the past, it did not start a new "book", just a new "chapter", so really, there is no reason for a new blog! Moving forward and continuing to live life {because I did not die on 11/5/11} is o.k., it is part of living life and trusting that God knows more about the book of my life than I do!

Yesterday, I read this on a friend's Facebook and really liked it ...  Written by Henry Scott Holland (27 January 1847 – 17 March 1918) was Regius Professor of Divinity at the University of Oxford:

I understand that this might not be completely "theologically sound", but I did like much of what it contained!  Rick has lost ... all of his grandparents, his dad Bucky and his 10 month old son, Joshua.  I've lost, all my grandparents, Rickey, and most recently we said "good-bye for now" to Papa Buck {along with many other friends and loved ones}.  Death changes life. Death changes our perspective on life.  What once seemed so important suddenly doesn't.  What we held on to, we can more easily let go of as we have learned that life is fleeting and we need to live each moment as it may be our last. I believe I have learned {and am learning daily} to love better, forgive quicker, and remember to cherish moments! We live life differently, we have a hole in our hearts where our loved ones were, but the lives we shared with them really is untouched, unchanged.  Those memories are ours to hold on to, they do not change because death has come. We speak often and easily in our home of those we have loved and lost, just as this writing says to do ... and we believe with our entire beings that those we loved who loved Christ and put their trust in  HIS saving grace truly are waiting for us ... just around the corner in Heaven and because Christ is the author and finisher of our faith, all is well!

So, I will continue to blog, as the mood strikes me, as I have thoughts to share or that I need to "unload".  It may be often, it may be infrequent, but I will blog {here|} as I miss journaling my thoughts, I miss using writing as a creative outlet for my feelings ... writing is healing and therapeutic for me!  Join me as I re-start this blogging journey if you wish, as I continue to follow the journey that He has planned for me!