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loose ends ...

In the weeks leading up to 12/21/12, there was “buzz” about the Mayan
calendar predicting the end of the world. People made jokes, people
planned parties, people thought about what they would do if it really
was their last day to live. People did what they could to tie up
their “loose ends” just in case tomorrow didn’t come . . . but it did.

According to the Bible, in Matthew 24:36 & Mark 13:32, “But about that
day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son,
but only the Father.”

I was not fearful on December 21 because I didn’t believe the Mayan
predictions, but I also wasn’t fearful because whether December 21 or
any other day is my last day to live, I know where I am going! Even
though I rest in that knowledge, it made me stop and think, do I live
as if each breath could be my last? I know, that for me, the answer
to that question, sadly, is no, I do not live as if each moment could
be my last. How DIFFERENT would my life be, would all of our lives


Over the past {almost} 13 months, I’ve had the opportunity to talk with lots of people . . .
I’ve been able to “live outside of” my own memories of November 5, and to hear their memories of that day.  It’s been very insightful to me to be able to have these conversations.
I think so often when we are thrust into the middle of any type of “crisis” situation, it is so easy to reflect only upon ourselves and the way we were affected, and we forget the broad reaching effect of the “event”.
I’ve been able to talk to some of those people who are/were closest to Rickey and me and to hear where they were, what they were doing, when they got the news that Rickey had gone to Heaven . . . sometimes I forget – I know “my” story so well, but Rickey touched so many, many lives, that everyone who knew him has a story as to “how” they learned of his accident.  It reminds me how much he was, and I am loved when people share with me.
There are MANY of these stories I could share – from my Pastor’s wife …

... being thankful ...

Today is Thanksgiving and there is SO MUCH to be thankful for . . . .  1 Thessalonians 5:18 - Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Today, I am thankful for the blessings that God has given me as I have followed him through this year.  I have learned so much to lean on Him, to lean into Him and to trust him in ALL things!  
I wrote this blog post a couple of days ago, and didn't get the chance to add pictures and post it, so am getting to it now . . .  
November 18 . . . my Birthday . . . I’ve always liked Birthdays . . . mine or anyone else’s!  I like to make a big deal out of them, and celebrate the person who is having a birthday!  Last year, November 18 came just 13 days after Rickey went to Heaven.  Sigh.  Not much reason to celebrate, for sure.  Yet, we still did celebrate some.  I was spoiled by my family, my friends & my co-workers.  It was a day that I will not forget.  In the midst of the most intense grief I could imagine…

Waking up in PARADISE ...

... November 5 (and Saturday the 3rd, and the 8th {funeral day}) have come and gone.  With little fanfare from most of the world.  To most, they are just dates, to us, the dates our world changed.
Thanks to the PRAYERS of so many friends & family, the visits, the cards, notes, e-mails, text messages, Facebook messages . . . we made it through those most difficult days.  We spent some of the weekend with Ashley & Brian & Ty - going to the movies and then a "girls lunch" (+Ty!!).  There were memories, tears, and yes, even laughter.  God is gracious and He gave us much grace this past week as the memories flooded back . . . speaking of memoires . . . 
Yesterday was November 9, 2012 . . . . My mind kept going back to
November 9, 2011 . . . it was a cold morning.  There was some
snow/sleet/rain falling from the gray overhanging clouds.  A dreary
day to be sure.  A day that the hunters would have loved – there was
just a bit of “tracking snow” on the ground – enough that tra…