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Dear Rickey,

From Facebook:
You wrote on Rick Rye's timeline. November 5, 2011 at 8:44pm
“For those who may not know, RICKEY ROGER RYE entered in to HEAVEN's GLORY around 11:00 this morning. The kids and I are struggling to make sense of this loss, but also KNOW that GOD is fully in control of each day of each of our lives and that GOD called Rick HOME today. One day, we are all fully assured that we will see him again in GLORY.” That was posted by me at  8:44 p.m. on one of the worst days of my life, but in reality, it was the BEST day of Rickey’s life because at 10:55 a.m. that morning 2 years ago, he found himself face-to-face with the GREATEST love of his life, Jesus.  We still struggle to make sense of this loss, but our faith in KNOWING that GOD is fully in control of each day of each of our lives has not wavered.  Until God calls US home, we won’t fully understand why God chose November 5,  2011 to call Rickey home, but we will continue to rest in the assurance that we WILL see him agai…

still grieving . . . .

"The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not 'get over' the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same.   Nor should you be the same nor would you want to."
Elizabeth Kubler-Ross & John Kessler
October 28 - We went out on a date, just the 2 of us, to LaCabana in Menominee.  It was our first time there, and little did we know, our last.  That day, Kajsa learned that she had made the cheer team.  Her Daddy was so proud!  
We never dreamed he'd never see her cheer.
October 29 - The girls and I went to town to run errands and get groceries.  We searched all over for pumpkins to carve.  We finally found some right here in Wallace.  As we left the pumpkin patch, Kajsa slammed her foot in the car door (I still can't figure out how her LEFT foot was slammed in the RIGHT side passenger door - but that's Kajsa!)

FiNdiNg OuR "New Normal" and the bLeSsiNgS along the way . . .

I started blogging here on November 17, 2011, 12 days after life as I had known it for almost 20 years was changed forever in the blink of an eye.
Since that time I have blogged about many of my feelings through this strange reality that became my life . . . becoming a “widow” (I STILL hate that word) at 45, becoming a suddenly single mom, struggling to know where I now fit in, in this world of couples.  I blogged about the “good”, the “bad” and sometimes the “ugly”.  After one post about the “good”, a comment was left that said, in part, that I was “only happy when things were going my way”.  Wow!  Really?  If you look back to the November 17, 2011 post that listed my husband’s obituary, I’d say that’s not really life “going my way”.  “My way” would have included at least 20 more years of living life together, at least 20 more years of seeing the grandchildren we had grow up, at least 20 more years together of seeing the girls graduate from high school, go to college, get married, hav…
August 18 . . . 8/18 . . . as I wrote that date at work today, I wanted to complete it 8/18/56, because for YEARS that is the date I filled in on any type of form that required Rickey's date of birth.  Two years ago, we celebrated him "turning the speed limit" when he turned 55.  Who would have EVER dreamed on that sunny August day that 2 1/2 months later, we would be saying good-bye and that Rickey would forever be 55 in our minds? So today, this day again filled with SO MANY memories of birthdays gone by, my Birthday wish to Rickey is this:
"Happy Birthday, Bud.  I can't believe that you are spending your 2nd Birthday in HEAVEN.  I'm pretty sure that days like this don't mean much when compared to the splendors of Heaven, but today, on earth, we will still celebrate YOU!  Though our human minds will NEVER grasp the reason that you had to leave us so soon, we WILL rest in the confidence that God does not make mistakes.  We might not like what happens, but…
When I first started blogging, I met my sweet friend Leah (you can check out her blog HERE ) through another blog for widows called "A Widow's Might".  Leah and I became good friends even though we live states apart.  We keep in touch via Facebook, texts, e-mails and the occasional phone call.  She was exactly 6 months and 1 day ahead of me in her "journey" of being a widow, so she was my inspiration, "if Leah can do it, so can I"!!
This past week, I was honored to receive an e-mail from Kit, from "A Widow's Might" asking me to guest post for her.  My prayer since Rickey died has been that I can show others the light and life and restoration that is available through Jesus!  You can read my first guest post there by clicking HERE.
I'm so thankful that God CAN turn my ashes to His beauty, and pray that He may be glorified, and others encouraged in Him through my testimony of His faithfulness!  
Thank you too, to Rick, your encouragement …
. . . Lord willing
January 2014 . . . 

Starting the process . . .  (Rick has a passport, I do not)

a picture IS worth 1,000 words!! (and more!)

Robin and one of his new friends . . .  we will be traveling with Robin and others! :) 

My sweet friend Jen . . . proving that love has no "color"

Game time . . . :)

The Summer 2012 "Travel Team" 

A map of Liberia, Africa!  :) See Yekepa . . . ??!! :)

Where in Africa is Liberia . . . Right THERE  (in yellow)!!

"A" is Chicago, Illinois (where we fly out of) "B" is Monrovia, Liberia, Africa (where we fly in to)!

Please pray with us as we begin this "journey" . . .  We will be saving money (big time), doing some fundraising and looking for financial support . . .  Right now, though, the biggest gift you can give us is your prayer support!!
So excited to see what GOD has in store!
Exodus 3:12 . . .  "He said, "but I will be with you"!"

what is contentment?

I remember my life being all nice and tidy.  Easy {basically} and
carefree.  The kind of life that appears to be a pretty package, wrapped up in a pretty bow.  A very contented life.

I can list the blessings easily!

Married to my best friend.
Three beautiful/well behaved daughters.
Two amazing  step kids, their spouses and the grandbabies.
A nice home – with an awesome yard … and a swimming pool!
Enough money to pay bills and a little extra for enjoyment.
Reliable vehicles.
Family nearby.
Jobs we liked.
A great church family.
Wonderful friends.

I could continue all day – there were SO MANY BLESSINGS!  We were content, so very content and blessed!

Our lives had been touched by very little tragedy.  Despite some health scares, cancer/heart attacks/accidents with our parents, all 4 of them were alive and doing quite well – our kids had all 4 grandparents to love on them.  We and our siblings & sibling-in-laws were basically healthy.  Our children and grandchildren were healthy. We hadn’t faced much adver…