Showing posts from January, 2017

{smile thinly and say you're fine when you're not}

"who doesn't know what it's like to smile thinly and say you're fine when you're not, when you're almost faint with pain? there isn't one of us not bearing the wounds from our own bloody battles."  {"the broken way" by ann voskamp chapter 1}

"amazing grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me.  i once was lost, but now am found, was blind, but now i see" ... keep singing, just keep singing, i try to tell myself, and myself argues back, but this is "amazing grace, my chains are gone". this is rickey's funeral song. i can't, i can't keep singing, but the song won't stop. ... "'twas grace that taught my heart to fear, and grace my fears relieved. how precious did that grace appear, the hour i first believed" ... ok then, i tell myself, don't sing, breathe. just breathe. in, out, in again. that's it, you've got this. just breathe. ... "my chains are gone, i've b…