This is another FAVORITE verse of mine!
But, until you are fully, truly, every second of every day hoping in the LORD, you don't really know how wonderfully HE will RENEW your STRENGTH!! How despite, or maybe in spite of your circumstances, you CAN soar on wings like EAGLES!! How you can RUN and not be WEARY and walk and not faint!
Today, I ran 6.33 miles (+ a little bit more - I turned my running program off a little before I was done by accident!) And I did it in an hour - those are less than 10 minute miles - sustained!! I even ran through the cemetery so I could tell Rick about it . . . I KNOW he's not really there, but it is the last resting place of his earthly body, there is a comfort in just knowing that he is there . . . I never used to like the cemetery, but now, it is a peaceful beautiful place - I felt really at peace running through it today. It's still really hard for me to grasp the fact that my biggest "fan" is not here for me! That is still one of my biggest "holes" . . . the not being somebody's priority. Not having someone who is always there, just for ME . . . Nobody to go out to eat with tonight, or go to the movies with, or sit home and do nothing with . . . it really is quite the adjustment. I very often feel like some people feel like I should be "getting over it" already, but really, how do you just "get over" 20 years of someone? How do you fill those empty spots? I KNOW that God IS always there, but as someone said to me, "God can't take you out to the Landing"! . . . Oh, so true. So sad, and so very true. I TRUST that God is my ALL in ALL, He is my STRENGTH when I am WEAK, He is the TREASURE that I SEEK . . . but HE created the institution of marriage, I believe HE knows the empty spot in my heart, and He reaches down, reminding me to look up and to HANG ON - His plans are higher than mine, He only asks me to TRUST and OBEY . . . for there really is no other way!
Today, God did RENEW my strength. I was having a not so good day and was throwing myself a pretty good pity party . . . BUT after my run, my mind was much clearer and I THOROUGHLY enjoyed my evening at home ALONE! I enjoyed the peace and quiet and even though a million things are clamoring for my attention, I did NOTHING!! It will all be there for me tomorrow!
Taya is having fun with her friend Linz at the concert in Lansing, Kajzi is (of course) having fun with Sarah working on a solar powered hot-dog cooker and Tessa called me a couple of times and it was really nice to talk to her. She is enjoying Chicago and her last BPA trip! The last call was to let me know that they made it to FINALS and will compete at 9:50 a.m. (CST) tomorrow! I will surely be praying for win number 13 tomorrow morning!!
"Come to me . . . Your life path has been difficult, draining you of strength. Come to Me for nurture. Let Me fill you up with My Presence. Faltering steps of dependence are not lack of faith; they are links to My Presence" ~ Jesus Calling
As I re-opened my devotional for today to add the portion above that really spoke to me this morning, I looked further down on the page to re-read the verses of the day . . . the second one was:
"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, thew will walk and not be faint.
I did NOT remember that verse was in there from this morning - I had already chosen a picture above and written most of this post BEFORE looking again at today's devotional! THAT is NOT coincidence, THAT is a GOD THING, because, you know, my God, He is way cool like that! :)