"Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take." Proverbs 3:5 & 6 . . . My "Girlfriends in God" devo today started out with: "Someone once said that if God showed us every detail of our lives - all at one time - we would sit down and refuse to face another day. We were not created to be omniscient like God. He reveals our future to us in portions we can digest" That's true isn't it? If someone had told me 2 months and ONE day ago what the next day would hold, I WOULD HAVE SAT DOWN AND REFUSED TO FACE THAT DAY. . . But, that option was not given to me (us). Therefore, here we are, 2 months "out" from November 5. Changed. Lonely. Empty. Sad. Grieving. Hopeful. Loved. Peaceful. So many "feelings". So many emotions that run through my life each day.
This 5th of January dawned a little brighter than December 5. Not literally - It was STILL dark when I got up this morning! It dawned brighter as I didn't feel so much like I was in a "haze" as I did on December 5. A little "lonlier" maybe, but more "clear" . . . The "reality" sets in more each day, but God's grace is sufficient for each day. This morning, just before I woke up, I had a dream . . . I was walking in a hallway and rounded a corner, and there was RICK! I was shocked, and tried (in my dream's mind) to figure out how he was there. It was "morning Rick" . . . his hair was pretty crazy, he was wearing his glasses and didn't have a shirt on . . . as soon as I could process the (dream) thought of wondering "how" he was there, he wasn't there anymore. It was interesting though because just then I woke up, but I didn't feel really lonely or empty. It was kind of like he was just "checking up" . . . making sure we were o.k.! I'm not into trying to decipher the "what & why" of dreams . . . but it was kind of a nice way to wake up on this morning of an "anniversary" that we shouldn't have to be acknowledging!
I have been focusing on "seeing" God's touch in everything (I do better sometimes than others!). I DO see more beauty in the sunrise and sunset each day. I notice the stars or the moon or cloud formations more than I used to. I (think) that I am a little more patient with my girls. I'm trying. I'm learning each day that GOD is there - IN EVERY DETAIL! He sends the blessings that we need - just when we need them! He sends friends who send texts and facebook messages. He gives that beautiful sunrise/sunset. HE IS THERE . . . all I'm asked to do is to TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL MY HEART ♥ And when there is nothing left, HE is THERE! He is showing which "path" to take and he is lighting that path, step by step! Oh, how I love HIM!